When you have 10 seconds, and your life is flashing before your eyes......what do you do? How do you react? What is important, what is vital? How do your priorities shuffle? In a moment everything can be lost, and life can take a turn you never thought it could take. Even if it is all "okay", is it ever the same?
No......it isn't. Not if it matters. When your angels cup you in their hands, and God cradles you...........it then becomes your job to make sense of it all. In a time of my life where I have lost so much, I almost lost it all. Well, "all". The material things. Because the important things were able to run out of my house, watching flames shoot out of the walls.
All the things I treat so importantly, stupid shit. Laptops, cell phones, expensive purses. None of it mattered. My girls, their things........my focus. Don't get me wrong, I know I love my children. But that love got put to the ultimate test. I tend to be a pretty selfish person sometimes, but when push comes to shove, my heart showed me the way. Then God took care of the rest.
Now I'm just left with this uneasiness, this fear. What if's are running though my head. I'm lucky to be alive, what if I would of not seen the flames shoot out, what if we weren't home? It would of burnt up. I know I wasn't the one that put out that fire. There was an angel that did that. A protector, a guardian. Because the first time I tried to put it out, I failed. In that moment, I thought to myself......I'm gonna loose it all.....OMG.....
But my all was already standing outside the door, safe. The rest was just stuff. The people we love, can never be replaced. That is the truth of life, everything else is just bullshit.
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