I've been living life, very happy lately. Loving my new job, new friends, and for the first time in a long time feeling good in my own skin. For the most part, as much as anyone can right?
But sometimes there are moments in life where the shadows creep up on you, and the darkness of the fear wraps around you. For me, there is still much fear. Moments feel scary, decisions feel scary, and so the fear reigns.
I have much to let go in terms of the fear I have around my children. I ache with fear that they will be hurt again. It drives me to a crazy place, a place of raw reaction. Like a lion protecting her cub. But what it doesn't allow is a place to sit back within myself to look at myself rationally.
When the person you thought would never leave your children does, how can you trust anyone else not to do the same?
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